12.10.07
Fire inside, snow outside!
OK, so I had the privilege of attending service this morning, a little convicted that I wasn’t helping out with the sock-hop in the back (thanks pm), but decided to give God my all just the same. Let me tell you, God is shaking some stuff up here at CFAN! I still can’t get over our snow machine. It brings a whole new meaning to walking into church. Ha! I know I’m not the only one who’s jaw is dropped in awe practically the whole service… But God has been speaking to me about some deep character issues. Here are some of my reflections….
- The meaning of Christmas alone has penetrated my heart like never before. It’s almost as if I am seeing a side of Jesus that I was blinded from all my life by my own indulgences.
- God brought up a verse to mind the other night out of no where while I was at “onething” prayer center. Psalm 46:1 “God is our Refuge and Strength, our very Present help in trouble.”
- Its all about your Fragrance. Is my Aroma of the Christmas spirit bringing Life or Death? (2Cor 2:16)
- Can I also take a moment to Honor my Pastor. Pm you are incredible! Never have a met a more passionate, on fire, faithfull, obedient and sacrificial servant of the Lord. Your boldness and zeal inspires me. You are loved more than you know. Thank you for your constant devotion.
- I refuse to be indignant like the disciples were. Get back satan! (Matt 26:6)
- I want to be a Mary, a beautifully broken sinner, covered by His grace.
- It hurts when my flaws are brought to surface, and I see that I’m not as ”good or righteous” as I thought.
- But like P.Roy once said “yea, sometimes going to the dentist is painful, but its a good pain because it’s really helping fix your teeth, not hurting them.”
- REFUGE- my second home. Love you guys!
- Worship team rocked this song by RelientK, I cant get it off my mind. Honestly, I went home iTuned it and bawled my eyes out.
“With this Christmas wish is missed
The point I could convey
If only I could find the words to say to let you know
How much you’ve touched my life because
Here is where you’re finding me
In the exact same place as New Years Eve
And from the lack of my persistency
We’re less than half as close as I wanna be And the first time that you opened your eyes
Did you realize that you would be my Savior
And the first breath that left your lips
Did you know that it would change this world forever
And the first time that you opened your eyes
Did you realize that you would be my Savior
And the first breath that left your lips
Did you know that it would change this world forever
And so this Christmas I’ll compare
The things I’ve felt in prior years
To what this midnight made so clear
That you have come to meet me here
To look back
And think that
This baby would one day save me
And the hope that
That you give
That you were born so I might really live
To look back
And think that
This baby would one day save me…
And the first time that you opened your eyes
Did you realize that you would be my Savior
And the first breath that left your lips
Did you know that it would change this world forever
And the first time that you opened your eyes
Did you realize that you would be my Savior
And the first breath that left your lips
Did you know that it would change this world forever
And I
I celebrate the day
That you were born to die
So I could one day
Pray for you to save my life….
(my eyes are still kinda swollen…)
12.09.07
I am Mary
I wake and take my first steps,
glancing in the mirror I get dressed. I am Mary.
Getting in the car, off to school, while changing lanes, who knew. I am Mary.
Read a book, take a test, trying to forget my mess. I am Mary.
Smile so they wont see, the one who sins the most, is me. I am Mary.
Sunday comes all too quickly, soon to realize something missing. I am Mary.
At your feet, on my knees, these silent tears are all you need. I am Mary.
Looking down you touch this heart, everything within falls apart.
Do you know who I am?
“Child of mine, try to understand.
My blood was shed with these two hands.
I came so you could have freedom.
Mary, Your forgiven.”
Blessed is she who believed that there would be fulfillment of what had been spoken to her by the Lord. (Luke 1:45)
12.05.07
i had to join the fun…
check out my elves….
http://www.elfyourself.com/?id=1171518796
this is so much fun!
http://www.elfyourself.com/?id=1172045112
mine are better!
12.03.07
What if…
What if we lived in such freedom that we just didn’t care. Don’t misunderstand me, for when I say not to care, I’m referring to the not caring, as to what the world throws our way…
I mean, what if I lived in such freedom that I could leave from school and not care if I am going to lose my parking space or not. We have to have the best parking space. God forbid we have to walk more than 30 feet to and from our car. It’s those little things that expose our character…but…. Whatever happened to the first will be last and the last shall be first? (Matt. 20:16) the parable of the workers in the vineyard – check out Matt 20.
Apparently Jesus didn’t want us to be selfish in all our ways. His word says the first will be humbled and the last will be raised. (1Peter 5:6) So, why do we always strive to be the first in the line at the grocery store.. or the first at the red light… It seems to be a natural instinct… Heaven help the person who tries to be first and get in-front of us, then you’ll really see the holy ghost in action!
What happened to laying our old selves down along with our pride and taking up the cross in new life, following Jesus with humility.
As humans, I believe we sometimes let the world control our motives and actions without even knowing it. If something doesn’t go my way, the world tells me to get mad and frustrated with life… I don’t know about you, but I’m tired of letting the world determine my happiness and attitude towards situations. Who really wants to live like that..? Not me! So,this is where I pose my question…
What if we lived in freedom from this world’s chains that bind us down..? Could that even be possible?
Was not the very blood of Jesus shed on the cross to set us free… As Christians, we must let go of the chains that are holding us down. Notice I said ‘let go.’ See, cause some chains bind us, while others we willingly hold onto. We must come to a realization, as followers, that we can not walk in freedom and yet still walk in the selfish ways of this world. Remember, nobody likes luke warm coffee… or milk. It’s either hot or cold.
You have a choice, to follow your Father or the world. If your walking in freedom than your life belongs to Him. So I challenge you to ask yourself, what if…?
Park in the back of the parking lot even if there are plenty of up-close spaces. Let someone else take the ten items or less line at Walmart and go to the longest line. Your patience will really be tested then! You’ll be surprised at how God will begin to reveal and mold your character. Watch as the Lord humbles your heart in the little ways that nobody sees. The Lord will begin to raise you in the eternal kingdom that wont fade away.
We serve a selfless God who calls us to live selfless lives… As hard as that may sound, What if we chose to be free…..
Can God really use me?
The next time you feel like God cant use you, just remember…
Noah was a drunk
Abraham was too old
Isaac was a daydreamer
Jacob was a liar
Leah was ugly
Joseph was abused
Moses had a stuttering problem
Gideon was afraid
Sampson had long hair and was a womanizer
Rahab was a prostitute
Jeremiah and Timothy were too young
David had an affair and was a murderer
Elijah was suicidal
Isaiah preached naked
Jonah ran from God
Naomi was a widow
Job went bankrupt
John the baptist ate bugs
Peter denied Christ
The disciples fell asleep while praying
Martha worried about everything
Mary Magdalene was, well you know…
The Samaritan woman was divorced, more than once
Zaccheus was too small
Paul was too religious
Timothy had an ulcer…. AND
Lazarus was dead!
….no more excuses now people… God Can use you.
Besides, your not the message, But the Messenger.
Commited to you Lord.
“I am seking, I am striving, I am in it with all my heart.” – Vincent Van Gogh
“Passion is the quickest to develope and the quickest to fade. Intimacy develops more slowly, and commitment more gradually still.” – Robert Sternberg
”If you dont fail now and again, it’s a sign that your playing it safe.” – Woody Allen
“If you risk nothing, than you risk everything.” – Geena Davis
“The chief enemy of creativity is good taste.” – Pablo Picasso
