Ok so it has taken me a little over a week to adjust back into the Floridian lifestyle… Honestly, it’s like going from one extreme to the next… Fort Collins, CO moved me. My heart is forever drawn there. One day I imagine I shall return for a visit…

The Lord was so gracious to illuminate many things in my heart while on this trip. It wasn’t like revelation where your coming to terms with something for the first time but God was reminding me of all the things He had already spoken over my life that I had somehow overlooked…

Here are some things I will NOT forget. (thank you Jimmy)

• Friday nights conversation with Leslie Ludy (remaining pure for Christ not just a future husband)
• Annie’s prayer over Alicia and I about hiding ourselves in the Lord
• The rocky mountain trip with Jimmy and the snow and the car ride
• Alicia’s dream  (that made us bawl) about standing on a table telling the lost about Jesus
• You can never get lost – mountains are always to the west
• How beautiful Colorado State University is
• All the people riding bikes
• Eric and Leslie Ludys passion for The Orphans (over 4 million in the world today)
• Missing our flight home and having to wait 4 hours in the Denver airport for the next flight to Atlanta
• The hour we spent in the airports chapel praying

This trip has just been so refreshing to me. I could not give justice to all that I have experienced by simply saying it was amazing or beautiful… because in truth it has been all of those wonderful words and more. So much more…

 I thought this weekend get-away would be healing for my fragile heart, and in many ways it was. But, as a whole, I believe God’s purpose for this trip was to illuminate things that were in my life (good and bad) This was revealation for me.

I feel as if God has been pealing the scales from my eyes to see my hearts true condition but at the same time to see the true glory of Jesus. My heart and spirit have just been so exhausted. All I have been wanting to do is cry. I found myself crying while driving to the hotel from the airport. I was hlding back the lump in my throat while listening to Leslie Ludy share her vision with me. I was swelling up when we were driving back from the rocky mountains thinking about how beautiful Gods glory is. I was crying while reading my bible and sharing my hearts calling with Alicia..

I thought this weekend was going to be an energy booster, but all I find myself doing is crying! And I’m not going to lie. It feels good. I feel like by doing so, my vulnerability is allowing God to pick up my heart and just love on it however he choses to……

Oh, how he has longed for us to slow down just enough for Him to catch us…

There is so much more to add to this, but right now I need to grab a tissue.

I am an orphan.

I am a child without a father.

I am the beggar at your feet.

In you …the Orphan finds mercy in you.

In you… the Orphan finds mercy in you.

I am the Orphan.

I am the child.

I wanna be alone with you… Lord I wanna be with you.

Take my joy.

Take my home.

Take everything and make me an orphan so that I can go and run to you.

Make me new.

Steal my joy.

Take my hope so I can run after you.

-Alicia Medina

I will sing a song of joy to your name

and I will rejoice.

I will rejoice.

I will sing a song of praise to your name

and I will bring you praise.

I will praise your name.

I will sing a song of hope to your name.

and I will hope in you.

My hope is in you.

I will sing a song of Love to you.

and you are my love song.

Lord how I love you.