06.25.09
Cross
How I long to see the picture finnished, painted as the perfect portrait, void of all the mysteries of my life.
The cares of life bend every corner taking me in wrong directions, can Iwalk dipite the pain and strife.
But what is life with out all the yearnings of the heart.
And who am I to doubt all you have in store for me.
So I will take up my cross and I will follow, I will follow…
and day by day and choice by choice I will follow, I follow…
And I will listen by the nailed way your cross is a better place and I will follow, I will follow…
So come and take me by the nailed gates, your cross is the safest place, I will follow, I will follow.
Your cross, it is the sweetest place.
04.05.09
This thing known as life.
Its crazy to think that a tomorrow can end up being 8 months later, a marriage and a life completely different than yesterday.
Either way, tomorrow still comes. Rain or shine. Joy or sorrow. Life goes on.
What frustrates me the most is that life doesnt wait for you to pull yourself together and hop on the boat with everyone else… No, it just keeps on moving, with or without you.
Life doesnt sound an alarm when your about to make a big mistake. It doesnt remind you to pay your bills on time or help you to love your spouse. Life shows no sympathy when you’d rather stay in bed and not go to work. It doesnt care if you lose your job or lose your mind for that matter.
Life shows no mercy even when your sorry. It doesnt forgive your mistakes or forget them. It doesnt care how your day went or if your car breaks down. Life has no compassion on you if you go hungry. Life doesnt lend a hand when you fall and cant get up. Life can not promise you a tomorrow no matter how good you are today.
Life is not always fair. It sometimes sucks. It does not care how hard you try or if you give up. It can never give you peace of mind.
Life can not promise you anything. It cannot save you. It can not heal you. It does not love you.
Life is just that, life.
I cant imagine living this life with out God in the center of it all. There would be no reason to live if I didnt have Jesus. Even if all I have is a thread of hope I’m holding onto. Life is more than all the pain and sorrow with out Him. My Jesus promises me hope for tomorrow.
05.02.08
I will.
Lord, I dont wanna live, if in living I’m already dead.
I don’t wanna burden myself, with all these things left unsaid.
Lord, I don’t wanna be the same girl that you knew yesterday.
In carrying a heavy heart, not knowing what to say.
Lord, I don’t wanna be afraid of what you have for me.
I dont wanna forget that you died and set me free.
Lord, I don’t wanna hold these tears back anymore.
I don’t wanna run from what you have in store.
Lord, I wanna run into you
I wanna fall into your hands.
Lord I wanna let go of all my dreams
I wanna find them in your plans.
Lord I wanna see you,
I wanna know you face to face.
Lord, I wanna touch you,
I wanna surrender to your grace.
Lord, I will.
12.05.07
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12.03.07
What if…
What if we lived in such freedom that we just didn’t care. Don’t misunderstand me, for when I say not to care, I’m referring to the not caring, as to what the world throws our way…
I mean, what if I lived in such freedom that I could leave from school and not care if I am going to lose my parking space or not. We have to have the best parking space. God forbid we have to walk more than 30 feet to and from our car. It’s those little things that expose our character…but…. Whatever happened to the first will be last and the last shall be first? (Matt. 20:16) the parable of the workers in the vineyard – check out Matt 20.
Apparently Jesus didn’t want us to be selfish in all our ways. His word says the first will be humbled and the last will be raised. (1Peter 5:6) So, why do we always strive to be the first in the line at the grocery store.. or the first at the red light… It seems to be a natural instinct… Heaven help the person who tries to be first and get in-front of us, then you’ll really see the holy ghost in action!
What happened to laying our old selves down along with our pride and taking up the cross in new life, following Jesus with humility.
As humans, I believe we sometimes let the world control our motives and actions without even knowing it. If something doesn’t go my way, the world tells me to get mad and frustrated with life… I don’t know about you, but I’m tired of letting the world determine my happiness and attitude towards situations. Who really wants to live like that..? Not me! So,this is where I pose my question…
What if we lived in freedom from this world’s chains that bind us down..? Could that even be possible?
Was not the very blood of Jesus shed on the cross to set us free… As Christians, we must let go of the chains that are holding us down. Notice I said ‘let go.’ See, cause some chains bind us, while others we willingly hold onto. We must come to a realization, as followers, that we can not walk in freedom and yet still walk in the selfish ways of this world. Remember, nobody likes luke warm coffee… or milk. It’s either hot or cold.
You have a choice, to follow your Father or the world. If your walking in freedom than your life belongs to Him. So I challenge you to ask yourself, what if…?
Park in the back of the parking lot even if there are plenty of up-close spaces. Let someone else take the ten items or less line at Walmart and go to the longest line. Your patience will really be tested then! You’ll be surprised at how God will begin to reveal and mold your character. Watch as the Lord humbles your heart in the little ways that nobody sees. The Lord will begin to raise you in the eternal kingdom that wont fade away.
We serve a selfless God who calls us to live selfless lives… As hard as that may sound, What if we chose to be free…..
Can God really use me?
The next time you feel like God cant use you, just remember…
Noah was a drunk
Abraham was too old
Isaac was a daydreamer
Jacob was a liar
Leah was ugly
Joseph was abused
Moses had a stuttering problem
Gideon was afraid
Sampson had long hair and was a womanizer
Rahab was a prostitute
Jeremiah and Timothy were too young
David had an affair and was a murderer
Elijah was suicidal
Isaiah preached naked
Jonah ran from God
Naomi was a widow
Job went bankrupt
John the baptist ate bugs
Peter denied Christ
The disciples fell asleep while praying
Martha worried about everything
Mary Magdalene was, well you know…
The Samaritan woman was divorced, more than once
Zaccheus was too small
Paul was too religious
Timothy had an ulcer…. AND
Lazarus was dead!
….no more excuses now people… God Can use you.
Besides, your not the message, But the Messenger.
11.29.07
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So when something moves me, I have to share.
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11.05.07
dancing in kids church…
So I help out back there with Jessica and Kyle at least once a month. You wanna talk about transition in a church, check out the kids ministry. This Sunday was a gorgeous morning. One of those mornings when you wake up and the birds are singing and you just know its a good day.
There was a great group of kids there Sunday and God has been bringing powerful messages through Jess and Kyle about the kids being a hero for Jesus. I couldn’t help but to smile and rejoice while being back there because I was seeing the seeds that are being planted in these kids everyweek. These kids are excited about Gods word and learning Gods character. You can see the love thats growing in their little hearts just by looking in their eyes. Jessica and I were helping them with this story sheet when we both turned around and noticed one of the little girls had gotten up and just started dancing and spinning around right in the middle of the room. Yes, there was worship music playing… She was totally oblivious to anything around her; we stood there and watched her as she twirled with this sweet smile on her face. I stopped to notice her and just watched for a few seconds before she came over to me, grabbed my hand and asked me to dance with her. Everything inside of me wanted nothing more than to join her. So I did. And we danced together rght there in the middle of kids church while the other kids finnished working on their coloring sheets.
I am brought to tears thinking back upon this simple moment where God demonstrated His love.
When was the last time we stopped to just spend time dancing with Jesus.? Seriously, stopped whatever it is we are doing and just rejoiced in the goodness of Gods love. Recklessly abandoned to everything around us.
Now if you wanna get even deeper, How many times have we rejected that hand that God offers to us to join with Him in this dance.? Many times on my end for whatever pathetic reason there is. Im too busy to notice God dancing around me. Too worried about my life to join in on the dance. When all God wants us to do is take His hand and trust Him. Can you imagine the freedom that awaits in the Fathers’ arms… … Now, maybe your not the dancing type, afraid you might step on His feet… God doesn’t want you to just physically move with Him. He wants your spirit to dance with Him in this song called life, as He is constantly inviting you to do every morning as you wake up and say to yourself ”its going to be a good day”.
Be encouraged my friends, to take this day and dance with your Father.
